cross dressing but not gay?…mabye a little but everyones a little gay…?
Ok first off I have come to the conclusion I must be bi-sexual, I still haven’t came out public with it but its pretty obvious to me what i am, and i dont really think i want to tell anyone because i dont want a bunch of gay guys hitting on me because i do not think i ever want to have sex with another guy, I still am very much attracted to women alot, and am even seeing a girl now that i think i am really into. but ever sense I was a young lad I have been cross dressing, starting just wearing women’s clothing to bed, just found silk nice i guess haha. but over the years i experimented quite a bit, i am 19 years old now and im starting to think its not just a phase but something deeper, I enjoy being a guy alot, i don’t think i am meant to be a woman, however i get strange uncontrollable urges to dress and watch Tranny videos…..I dont really beat myself up about it as much as i use too…but, about a year or so ago i was experimenting with alot of drugs not to mention i was battling with depression for a few years attempted suicide…i ended up being forced to see a quack but never really told him about it, because i just couldent……..im very confused and do not know what to do, i guess i get bored with masturbating, i find when i am having sex regularly i dont have have the urges but like my situation now not having sex in 4 or 5 months i am coming back to it, i rather be having sex with a hot young woman in a hot black dress then to be masturbating while i am wearing a dress? it sounds extremely foolish when i break it down………like if i had the choice to have a girlfriend that i could have sex with when ever or to cross dress the girl would win everytime…..i dont know, from what i have read on what i have found on google it seems i will always dress but come on…….why? i feel like a complete sicko but at the same time i dont care, i dont feel like anyone needs to know about it, i just dont want to have it on my mind….i want to start a relationship with a girl and be normal. i dressed tonight, i am going to try and stop but i dont know, i have a date tomorrow with that girl……….should i try and stop, how can i have a girlfriend and cross dress too?
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Valerie
Meg
How come you have my life?
Okay maybe not exactly, but there are enough similarities here. For starters, You are not gay, and if you are bisexual, then it’s just the very edge of it. You said it yourself: "i do not think i ever want to have sex with another guy".
What you wear is not an indication of your sexuality. I too crossdress, I have been dressing since i was young and am now 40. I am most certainly not gay or even bisexual. I am intrigued however by other crossdressers. To see how they look, to see what they wear. It doesn’t mean i’m looking to have sex with them.
When you are with a girl, your thoughts are focused on her so it’s natural for you to not be thinking about that little denim skirt you have. But then again, when you are not with someone it is not surprising that you want to wear that silky nightie to bed. For a crossdresser this is perfectly normal.
I doubt that you could stop cross-dressing now. It is, to put it simply, a part of who you are.
Here is what i suggest: talk to other cross-dressers and get their perspective. you will find how similar your story is with theirs, with mine.
Look into these sites where you can meet some others and share stories and compare notes. You will learn that you are NOT a sicko and you are normal… for a crossdresser.
http://www.URNotAlone.com
http://www.tri-ess.org
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well no one is really 100% gay or 100% straight. that is just how it is. about the cross dressing it is just a part of yourself so don’t worry and if that girl won’t accept you for that then it’s her loss